Board Thread:World Map/@comment-25687356-20161026224342/@comment-25072069-20161027230444

Listen and read for feels

Looking at the pair, her eyes flowed to Keldran. From his toes, her eyes slowly crawled up to look at his own. So dark in color she smiled softly, remembering the first time she had looked upon them. Their actions were something to expect. “Just listen. I simply want to express my feelings. No one knows I am here… You can kill me if you have to, But I just can not hold in my pain any longer” Looking down at her chakra blades they were unactivated. Her hands shook even after 2 years she acted like a nervous wreck around him. Slowly pulling them off so that they would see she was not a threat she placed them on the palm of her right hand and held them out.

“Maybe they are not a form of identification … But they were made by someone very special to me. Hand crafted to fit my now bruised and scar’d hands, I remember like it was yesterday. You opened the door and I could not have looked more like a teenage girl in front of my father. I was so nervous, Just like I am now. You gave me a kiss once he had left and it felt like I could not breathe…” Chuckling little bit she closed her hands tightly on the blades as if they meant more to her than her own life. Slumping her hands in front of her she rubbed the chakra blades smooth texture. “First you took my the indents of my fingers length and width… Added an inch for them to be comfy. Even added knuckled to punch harder,  Here they are” Slowly coming to her knees to place them down as he asked although she was extremely careful with them. “They were the symbol of the day we actually got to know each other a little… In fact they were the only thing I had left of you” Her voice cracked just a bit but she stabilized her voice and left the blades on the ground before getting up again.

Looking up again her heart was pounding so hard, she swore it echoed throughout  the forrest. “The last time I saw you alive was when my team and yours were traveling to Sunagakure. I blushed so hard my students had never seen me like that. Thats how I remember you Mugen.” Sighing as it was getting to the harder part of the past she dreaded. “I watched from a wheel chair as your dragon came in. My skin had been burned off me and my nervous system was so burnt up they did not believe I was ever going to feel or even fight again. Yet still in my lowest state I waited, waited to see your goofy grin and blue hair, The hero of Konoha…” Her voice softened and crumbled. “You did not come back that day… Neither did my beloved students. I-I…. I did not even get to say goodbye, it was like something had been ripped away from me preventing something that could have been. Leaving a permanent hole in my heart. I simply could not believe the hero that had saved me under the colors of the fire works was not going to come back” Clenching her hands she looked at him feeling her chest get heavier and heavier by the second.

“Never did I think I was going to fall in love with someone so quickly or even love in general. But that was a bust the moment I met you as a sad and drunken woman. For 8 months I was put into intensive care and everyday I thought of those I lost. You made me feel so comfortable to talk to you in your home… In all those days I dreamed of talking to you and letting myself open up and cry about everything. But you were not there so I held it in and soon enough I was able to perform Jutsu again. I was so happy… I worked so hard to recover, I just wanted to run to you and show you…” Seika barely noticed she was crying, the water works where so deep it was like everything she was holding for the past years were finally being cleansed. “Finally when I was able to go on missions I felt I had achieved so much, then my sister died in my arms after I tried to save her. Making me realize I had not achieved anything. I could not save anyone I cared about. There was no one to hold me like you did, My father had taught me to never show my weakness so I did not… Or maybe I never trusted anyone enough to, but you changed that” Sighing she was now looking at the floor were she saw droplets staining the ground beneath her.

“I pushed myself into a dark hole, one that turned me into nothing more than a speck of dust. I pushed everyone away… I had lost that fire you once did or did not like. Just there’s always a twist. We found out you might still be alive… It was like I had died than came back to life. But then I realized we had deserted you …. for a year you were all alone and here I was giving myself so much sympathy. I bet you wanted someone to talk to, someone to hold. To be free. So I jumped at the chance to find you, My one and last hope. Then there you were, lying down so peacefully but put through so much torment and neglect. How could I have been so selfish… It broke my heart to see you that way” Taking off her pouches they fell to the floor in comparison to her precious chakra blades. Trying to take a step towards Keldran, her legs wobbled and she stumbled a bit. “I went straight to the emergency room with you and waited for the news. You had survived and I went to see you. I sat beside you and expressed that maybe I was not good for you, that I was too old and withered. I was making your own decision not to see me, because I was avoiding the possible heart break of you rejecting me. Heck it had been all these years, I could not expect you to feel the same anymore, especially like this…” She would pull off her sleeves revealing cuts, bruises and most of all burns. Then she took off her scarf showing many of the same things. “But then I regretted it so much, I had been looking for a year and I was so excited to possibly see you. Yet I had the gull to give up. So In the dead of night I ran to you, like I never had before…” Her voice was finally broken. “YOU LEFT!” she would plummet to the ground, “I wanted to finally express myself, and you were gone again. But I was not going to let you ago again. I was not going to give up”

Pointing into the trees Phae would peak out. “My wonderful summon helped me find you, but we also found the devastation of your clan” Seika looked up at him. “I don’t know if it was you… I can not force you to come back with me. But I just wanted you to hear me. Heck I just wanted to hear your voice, even just that and I would be happy and leave you alone… I will not rat you out I will go back and act as if it had not happened… I will leave this spot and let you do what you have to do. I can not imagine what you have been through, But I’ll loose you again… Just so you can be safe, Your brother as well. I will not speak a word, I would rather give up my life” Almost finished her cry, taking a breath that she had not been able to before. “If you ask why I did all this, why I had come so far. To risk the career I adore… Is because I love you. I love your laugh, your goofy self, strength, humbleness, bravery, loving and caring side. The way you make me feel like I’m more than just my fathers robotic creation he needs to be just as strong as him… How your voice makes me stutter and get clumsy, how your touch makes me feel like I belonged in them… I wanted you to know how I felt and I would do so much just for you. Even though you might not feel the same, I just wanted to tell you what I’ve been wanting to tell you for the past 2 years of missing you” By this time she did not care if Keldran had to kill her because of distrust, she felt reborn… Letting her feelings speak and her emotions spread. She cared about this guy so much… If she lost him if was the price she would make so that they would be safe.

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So she just sat there waiting for any possible reply. Here it was… Afraid of what he was going to say. “Thank you for allowing me the chance to see you again… Even if it might not be that long” Finishing she sat quiet, but then looked right back up at the guy she had desired for so long, the one she craved a smile from. Giving him a smile that she had not been able to give to anyone else but him.