Board Thread:Konoha General RP/@comment-25955740-20170817010142/@comment-25955740-20170820064230

“ Oh. Moushi is of the Tamashi clan. His title is compared to Sesshō. I believe it’s proper to say, he is my administer. ” She said, pausing. It seemed there something more to that than she wanted to tell, but, she didn’t figure this was a time to tell him, it was a rather deep topic. “ Well. Out of the thirteen houses, it appears.. Moushi and I are the only ones left, this place flocked with many family members; I want to open it to my friends and allies.. But.. The contain in this library caused Moushi to be quite displeased with such an expression, he highly disapproved of you being here, but he respected my wishes. Diaries, journals, books of everything that has died, it goes beyond just the thirteen houses, beyond their making, to the purest form of the clans and houses. I can happy tell you more about these things. ” She spoke. Explaining how important such a place is to the clan, along with detailing how small the clan is now, even telling him the clan happened to be so big it was broke into thirteen houses—She almost blushed a bit, she felt a bit embarrassed from her childish display, the place did hold an important place in her heart, the shattered one she had, it was one of the few memories she had, and because of that, she hardly came here, ever. The amount of history here was hardly able to be explained, it was so vast it could more than likely be felt. She simply nodded to him as she stood her seat, the conversation was about to take a turn.   As he replied to what she had to say, his question was quite straightforward and his gaze shifted not, his words were short and he didn’t have to say much more—She wasn’t going to ignore nor even attempt to lie, as if she could. “ I didn’t want to be accepted. I didn’t want to be apart of a team. I didn’t want to be a ninja. I didn’t want to feel this pain again. The first beyond I can’t begin to speak about.. The second betrayal ripped me apart, broke me, Moushi still can’t fix it to this day.. The second betrayal, beyond the teasing, beyond the bullying, the one friend I thought I had in the academy was noone more attempting to dive into the sinful secrets of the Tamashi clan—My heart cut by my mother from the start of my life, stomped by my own father, stitched up by Moushi to heal enough to be stabbed right into the scar and to the academy, it was simply crushed. ” She spoke clearly about how she felt, attempting not to make excuses, but to her it felt like them, she had to pause. “ I was drafted into the team, I didn’t want to be there and I had not a choice, it made me nervous, scared and contained.  I wanted to come off that way, because I wanted to be kicked away. I’m terrified of being alone, but I’m most scared of getting attached and being lost again, to lose someone or to be discarded again. So I thought. If I told everyone my expectations of them, prejudged them, twisting my words without a simple lie being told.. I could go on, being the narrow girl I am, not expecting such hurt again.. ” She spoke, her eyes closed, her hands balled, squeezing the fabric of her skirt as her head tilted downward.

“ So. I hoped I would’ve been rejected. I’m terrified of being hurt, because I’m weak. I don’t want to be attached to anything, because I know the pain is something worse than death. It’s almost a bit ionic, considering, I want to be friends with you, because you don’t scare me, because I want to trust that I won’t be hurt. Atop of that. It’s a bit more funny, considering, I learned that. Both my choice was selfish and narrow, the outcome wasn’t what I wanted nor expected, but.. It was kinda of nice. Though.. You can judge me poorly, even hold disdain for what I did. <span style="font-weight:400;font-size:12pt;font-family:Calibri;color:rgb(0,0,0);white-space:pre-wrap;">” She spoke before finishing, inhaling calmly.