Board Thread:Konoha Logs/@comment-30271674-20161121182448/@comment-30271674-20161128055204

A trek began through the forests, moving beyond the fell trees as he began to forget about the monster he had just been tracking before. Ieyasu would have time for that later, for now he had to think on how he could fix himself. His will wavered as melancholy pressed down, a side-effect of that manic episode of before but it was just another thing to shrug off as Ieyasu drew to a tree almost as big as he was.

He brought his fists up before beginning to wail on them. his eyes seemingly drawing their gaze elsewhere as he delved into the chasm of his mind.

'''If I keep on, I'll start hurting more people than myself. I'll be a bigger failure than I already am... If I can turn my sadness into rage... maybe I could use that rage. Keep the squad in line, but for what else. Fighting?'''

Perplexion drew on Ieyasu's visage, as the thought struck him from a distant memory. A mission he had been on with a Yamanaka, he had captured a thief and tried to emulate what his father did when he began doing all of this training. Trying to concentrate all of that negativity, anger, but something more than that. Bloodlust even? The point was that it was controlled, although Ieyasu was bad at doing such things as said anger spiralled out of control as he killed and maimed the rest he crossed paths with.

If that could be done on command with a person as angry as his father, then it seemed plausible Ieyasu could do it himself and perhaps go further beyond with it to fine-tune his own personal problems.